Be Yourself........no one else will

I wrote someone I came across on MySpace.

I love it when you
find someone who you don't even know, for me I tend to want to write
them and tell them all about it. Other times i'm too afraid and think they might find it "weird" hahahha. I don't care though.....in the end I feel as though, i might have brightened
up their day a bit more. I mean think about it: finding an e-mail in
your inbox from someone you don't know, just to find they've written
you um...let's see, written you something you NEVER would have thought
anyone would. I mean, come on it's not everyday some random person
writes you just to tell you how awesome of a person they think you are.
Fuck,i'd be like "whoa......someone actually took the time to read my
blogs,I don't even know them and yet they went out of their way to
write this" Okay, well anyway Here it is:

Hey-
You remind me
a lot of myself. That's so cool...well at least I think so. Anyway I
was
reading your blogs, and I find it so um.....cool. I feel not so alone
in the way I think and feel about certain things, you know? Anyway the
blog "What's wrong w/me?"
Really made me mad........I mean kinda sad too, but mostly mad...For I
believe NOTHING is wrong with you (I know you wrote this a while back
and lots has changed and you have grown as a person, thus your
thoughts and beliefs have changed as well) but I think it's so cool
that you are questioning your motives and such things. Anyway the part
where you said something along the lines of how you thought maybe
you're the crazy one in your family....really upset me. Not at you, but
at society and the media in general. For they are the ones that put
this
"label" on everything that isn't up to their standards, and anything or
anyone that is "different" or in my words: "Actually
being an individual" is wrong and that they shouldn't be that way. It's
sick to me. I mean you get told to "be yourself" all your life, but
then school comes along and what happens: being yourself is considered
"wrong and weird" so you (if your not as strong willed of a person) end
up conforming to certain groups to try to "fit in." And god forbid you
don't conform, and you actually stay true to yourself......in my case
and
I'd really like to say your case too: you end up feeling as though,
you're getting looked down upon in a way, because you DIDN'T "follow
the crowd"
When in actuality YOU are the one getting looked up at....for being so true to yourself. And i'm
sure lots of people were and are jealous that they aren't able to be
that way as well. Thus the reason they would try to make your life a
living hell.

Anyway
I guess my point to all this is, that society puts this image in our
heads saying that it's cool to be yourself around yourself, but if you
bring it around anyone else.....that's wrong. You need to hide who you
really are from the world and then society will love you. That to me is
how i perceive society and media. I HATE that, and I'm glad that you
haven't conformed. And at times, you may think that you betrayed
yourself for not being 100% yourself around everyone......but that's
normal, whatever "normal" may be....in my head I believe that, that is
just one of those things EVERYONE does from time to time or just fuck
it ALL the time. As hard as you try to be yourself, there is always
going to be someone who is going to try to break you down, and make fun
of you for one reason or another...that's horrible, but somewhat true.

My thought on that, is if there is nothing anyone can find bad about
you, they're going to try as much as they can to find a fault in
you.....because it bothers them to see that they can't see any of your
insecurities when your being yourself, all the more reason for them to
MAKE one up and point it out to you.

#1. To make them feel better about themselves.

#2. To make you feel questionable about yourself.

It funny, cause I just thought of this now, when i'm
sure most people already knew this, but um most of the things others
try to knock you down for and "label" you with, are their own
insecurities, thus them feeling better about themselves because now
they can feel slightly more "normal" to themselves for they believe
someone else has the same insecurity. Make sense?? Anyway, the more you
say "fuck that...I know i'm not this or i'm not that" The more they get
pissed off that it's not upsetting you......and the more they're going
to want to piss you off. But eventually when they get tired of it, and
stop.......they'll go onto the next person to try breaking them. Sad
huh?

So as I continue to ramble(even though I said I was done) I guess i'd just like to say "Thanks" for being true to yourself as best as you can, and don't forget that you are such a Strong
person...I mean for the fact that you can question certain things about
yourself and wonder why, is such a healthy thing and a lot of people
are so afraid to look inside themselves and ask. Most people just bury
it deep within and pray not to see the truth, or what might be. You
know what I mean??

Okay, so in conclusion (really?? Oh my god I never thought you'd get there. hahaha)
I'd just like to say, that being "crazy" isn't a BAD thing, it's just a
different way people who don't understand you and your thoughts, and
impressions
of the world....are once again "labeling" you. So I say "FUCK THEM!!!"
Be yourself and love who you are, no matter what they say.


Being an individual is also known as "being one" something that is
individually wrapped is mostly um....in it's own packaging being alone
with it's own thoughts and self. (okay, so maybe if your talking about
candy....then it would be alone with it's own sugar and chocolate
flavors).....M&M'S came to mind, then I realized oh fuck, they're
not
even individually wrapped they too have conformed damn it! But you know
what I mean: You can't be an individual if you "follow the crowd and
conform to their every command"

Well yep that's all. I promise :)

Take care!
~Alice