It's time

Okay, so now i'm super sick of being at my house and i'm moving out. I'm not sick of it i'm just tired of listening to the fucking crap that my roomies have to say. Actually they don't say anything and it's driving me mad. The vibe i get from that house is so low and draining.....it's sad. They need to work out their problems without me being the "safety net" that they're using as an excuse not to talk to each other. I know what they're doing.....they don't think i do. People don't understand that i see a lot more than they think i do. (You have to watch those quiet ones) hahahaha They wonder why i'm never home anymore? Whatever. They can bitch all they want when i move out. First time ever to be living on my own. Scary thought for me but i'm sure i can do it........I mean come on i've flown around the world to countries most people can only dream about going to. (and survived watching 2 little kids) I think i can survive living on my own. Did i mention I HATE flying?? Drove to and from St. Louis all by myself (w/o being scared of getting lost once.) And a lot of other things i'm sure count as being super brave and shit. Not once had I doubted myself when doing the crazy drives to and from Milwaukee and St. Louis, or any other place i had never driven to before...i just fucking went and honestly didn't worry. Gurnee at night was scary but that was a diff. story. Driving home at night is hard. Anyway Yep....and so i guess i just have to start fucking believing in myself a lot more, find my inner confidence, without doubting and bringing the "super crazy Alice bitch" I can be....down. TRUST..... it's the hardest thing i have to beat. I need to learn how to "let go" and just trust myself.

-FIN